urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88 Here's my heart. Go ahead and break it. Ash 2005-11-16T23:22:41Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:256051 2005-11-16T23:22:41Z 2005-11-16T23:22:41Z 15 Years Ago, I:<br />1. was 6 years old<br />2. worried about this girl in my class who always copied off my papers.<br />3. went to Orlando for the first time ever and got my ears pierced.<br /><br />10 Years Ago, I:<br />1. had my first boyfriend and first kiss.<br />2. rode the bus home from school.<br />3. considered myself the "second most popular kid" in our class.<br /><br />5 Years Ago, I:<br />1. got my drivers license.<br />2. thought I was in love.<br />3. lost my virginity.<br /><br />3 Years Ago, I:<br />1. lived in Buffalo.<br />2. got my heart broke.<br />3. used a fake ID.<br /><br />1 Year Ago, I:<br />1. was getting ready to spend my first holiday with Justin's family.<br />2. had the best roommates in the world: Justin, Anthony and Matt<br />3. threw the best parties.<br /><br />6 Months Ago, I:<br />1. quit my old job and started working at Macy's.<br />2. never got to lay out in the sun.<br />3. lost my Meme.<br /><br />1 Month Ago, I:<br />1. started going to Cellar with Dana a lot.<br />2. was trying to figure out what to be for Halloween.<br />3. realized that I'd be incredibly lost if Justin wasn't a part of my life.<br /><br />1 Week Ago, I:<br />1. was with Justin and his family in PSL mourning the loss of his grandfather.<br />2. was crying.<br />3. hugged Laura.<br /><br />1 hour Ago, I:<br />1. was at work.<br />2. got a call from Justin.<br />3. opened up a credit account for a customer.<br /><br />My Top 3 Biggest Worries at the Moment:<br />1. Having Thanksgiving with Justin's family and my parents and not have Pappa there.<br />2. I don't have enough money.<br />3. School school school.<br /><br />My Top 3 Biggest Joys at the Moment:<br />1. Being able to spend the last week with Justin made me so happy.<br />2. Shar's finally 21 - happy birthday!!<br />3. I met Hanson :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:255994 2005-08-08T23:48:30Z 2005-08-08T23:48:30Z Wow. I think it just might be time for an update.<br /><br />So the summer is almost over and it's almost time to go back to school. I'm going to be working full time and going to school full time. It's the only way to afford to live and make any decent money. But I'm back at UCF which is extremely exciting. <br /><br />I'm looking forward to fall. Looking forward to school starting. I'm done with this summer. I can honestly say that it has been one of the worst summers ever. You know, I was really excited to have my first Florida summer...but I worked all the time, never really went to the pool or to the beach...and things between Justin and I were so up and down it was taking up all of my energy. I have a lot on my plate right now and it's really hard.<br /><br />I missed out on a lot by being down here this summer. I missed my first summer with my Etka boys. I missed going on vacation with them. I spent my first 4th of July completely alone and didn't get to see any fireworks. Plenty of people called me, though, to remind me how much fun I was missing [Belinda, Shar, Pam, my parents]. It was hard to not do anything on the 4th because it's my favorite holiday. I missed the family trip to Kentucky. I missed being in Buffalo with everyone, being in the city with Shar...<br /><br />All my roommates have officially moved out [the last one was very unexpected] so now I'm living by myself for a few weeks until someone new moves in. It's really depressing because I'm going to have to start taking down the things on the walls that made our apartment so interesting. A collection of beer ads, bikini models and movie posters that the guys have gained/bought/stolen over the years. A new era of people will move in and new friendships will form, I'm sure...but I want the old ones back. It sucks.<br /><br />My parents are planning on coming down for Thanksgiving...so that's something to look forward to. My mother is turning 50 the day they come down and she's trying to avoid it like the plague. My birthday is coming up soon, too. The big 2-1. I doubt I'll do anything for it, though. I wish someone would help make some plans or I had someone to do something with but I just don't see it happening. Plus, I'm turning 21 on a Sunday night and there's not many choices of places to go on Sunday. And I can't actually do anything on my real birthday night because I'll have class the next day at 9AM. I dunno, we'll see.<br /><br />I guess this is all for now. Who knows when my computer will be fixed. Until then I'll just keep trying to get on Justin's to see how everyone is doing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:255742 2005-05-12T02:01:28Z 2005-05-12T02:01:28Z <em>Heart, we can do this together.</em> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:255416 2005-05-11T23:12:23Z 2005-05-11T23:12:23Z <a name="cutid1"></a><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/AshMeme.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:255063 2005-05-03T15:41:50Z 2005-05-03T15:41:50Z School is officially over. All my trips are over. There is nothing really to look forward to anymore.<br /><br />Justin and I went to NY and had the best week we've had ever. We went to Buffalo and stayed with <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_mothermayi5' lj:user='mothermayi5' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://mothermayi5.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://mothermayi5.livejournal.com/'><b>mothermayi5</b></a></span> and everyone else. Justin now realizes how great it is up there and why I fell in love with it. I think he left a part of his heart there, too. That's how much fun we had.<br /><br />We got to eat a lot of the food I've been missing [Hello! NY Pizza], see a lot of friends and family. <br /><br />My brother's wedding was great. Everything went well, everything was perfect. I'm so happy for them and they really have a good thing going for them. I will get around to posting pictures sooner or later and then let everyone know. <br /><br />Things have been rough since we've been back. As soon as the plane landed back in Orlando...everything has been different. I just don't want to be here. I don't want to be away from my Mom like this. I don't want to be so far from my girlfriends. And it sucks. Because I can't do anything about it. But I'm through with Orlando right now. I'm tired of it. I wish I could go home for the summer again. Last year at this time I was home and everything was great. I love New York. I miss my boys, I don't want to be away from them all summer. I don't want to not spend my summer with them like I have the past three years.<br /><br />It's so hard. And I want to make the best of it. I don't want to mope around. But it's just so hard.<br /><br /><br /><i>your highs are high and your lows are low...but that's</i> okay<i>. It means you are feeling.</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:254754 2005-04-11T16:47:00Z 2005-04-11T16:47:00Z I think I have a LJ stalker!!! Ah!<br /><br /><br />Justin will be home any minute then it's off to the gym and the pool. About two weeks left until the wedding and have to look good! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:254557 2005-04-08T19:07:36Z 2005-04-08T19:09:58Z <p>So, I think it's official. I never write.</p> <p>The past month has been absolutely insane with Tina and Marcus coming down from South Carolina, Sharleen from Syracuse, Adam and Tiffany from Ohio and <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_mothermayi5' lj:user='mothermayi5' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://mothermayi5.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://mothermayi5.livejournal.com/'><b>mothermayi5</b></a></span>&nbsp;from Buffalo. But all of our visitors are gone now and we're getting ready to head up to New York from my brothers wedding in less than two weeks. It's coming close, I haven't been home in nine months, and I am extremely excited.</p> <p>I can not believe that my brother will be married soon. How old are we getting? Nate's getting married, I live in seven states away from my family...where did the time go? When did we grow up? I didn't even realize it happening - it went by so fast.</p> <p>But I'm happy. And so is he. And that's a plus. We are all stressed out with the small things but we're happy. And that's the best gift God has given me.</p> <p>Justin and I are doing good. I love him. God, I love him. I can't repeat it over and over enough. It's such a great feeling when you found the one person that could make you happy for the rest of your life - someone to grow up and grow old with. He makes me happy. Just being in his general vicinity makes me smile. He's so handsome and sexy...I can't get enough.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>[[<font size="1">As for you. I don't know where you've been lately. I don't know why I don't matter anymore. But I can tell you that you have hurt me this past month because you haven't cared. And that sucks. Because I thought you and I were good friends - forever friends. And by you not even bothering to contact me and meet all of these people who are so important in my life while they were visiting has hurt me more than I can put in words. I'm glad you're happy. I'm glad that you're doing good. But I wish that I crossed your mind every once in awhile...or even be good enough for a quick "hello</font><font size="2">".</font>]]</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:254269 2005-03-26T19:01:31Z 2005-03-26T19:01:31Z The first year of many more to come.<br /><br />I love you, Justin.<br /><br />03/25/04<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/122_2212.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:253969 2005-03-09T23:05:52Z 2005-03-09T23:05:52Z <p>So, it's Wednesday. Tina and her boyfriend, Marcus, have been here since Saturday night. I'm terribly afraid that I'm boring them. With work and school and no money it is hard to entertain as much as I want to in Orlando. Most things cost time and money. Poor college students don't have much of either. It's so nice to have Tina here, though. It's definitely nice to approve of the object of her affections, too.</p> <p>Sharleen is coming on Friday. I'm pumped. It's been 8 months too long since I've seen her. Also, tomorrow, Justin's godparents son is coming down with his girlfriend. And I called Justin's little brother, Aaron, and got him to come up to Orlando this weekend too. It's going to be a full house...not to mention a big ass party on Friday night.</p> <p>Definitely can't wait. </p> <p>Things with Justin and I are better than ever [not like there was much of a rough patch before]. But everything has just been getting better and better lately and I'm loving loving him.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>Life is good right now. Very good.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:253727 2005-03-03T19:41:20Z 2005-03-03T19:41:20Z I love him. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:253689 2005-02-28T22:13:38Z 2005-02-28T22:13:38Z Went job hunting today. <br /><br />Put in an application at Zale's and will be putting one it at Applebee's. Must find a new job. I hate where I work now with a passion. I despise the people, the job itself, the customers, most of the managers. The pay is decent, along with the hours, but I'm so unhappy and it's affecting my entire life. I come home miserable and in need of an alcoholic beverage and I don't need to be doing that five days a week.<br /><br />Hopefully something will come up soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:253191 2005-02-28T01:37:49Z 2005-02-28T01:37:49Z Can't we try just a little bit harder? <br />Can't we give just a little bit more? <br />Can't we try to understand that it's love we're fighting for? <br />Can't we try just a little more passion? <br />Can't we try just a little less pride? <br />I love you so much baby, that it tears me up inside. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:253143 2005-02-20T00:02:42Z 2005-02-20T00:02:42Z I had the best day ever on Thursday.<br /><br />I got out of Orlando with Justin for the day. On our way there I demanded we had sandwiches with sharp chesse, no air conditioning in the car - windows down only - and had to sing at the top of our lungs and dance around the car. That's what Mo and I always did and it wouldn't be a trip to Daytona without the same events. Justin laughed, enjoyed his lunch and danced and mimicked Ashlee Simpson and NitoriousB.I.G. <br /><br />We orginally were going to spend the day in PSL [his hometown] but decided to skip out on that and do something different. We got to Daytona and went to Maureen's new apartment and hung out with her and her boyfriend Chris for awhile. We headed to the beach and the first thing I noticed was how eroded everything was from the hurricanes. The walkway steps had about 6 more in order to actually get down to the beach and the sand dunes were all messed up. It was sad. We laid out and talked about everything. We got down to the water once to wash our hands off but the water was too cold to even sit our feet in. We wrestled around and fooled around for awhile until the clouds got dark and the wind picked up, then decided to go home.<br /><br />Stopped at Allison's and got ice cream and managed not to get too lost on the way home.<br /><br />Justin kept commenting about how much happier I was in Daytona than Orlando. How much happier I seem with Maureen. That she and I compliment each other well.<br /><br />And I guess he's right. I am much happier when I'm with Maureen because it's finally a girlfriend I can sit around and talk about girl things to. And I don't have anyone to do that with here.<br /><br />I was no longer the cynical, sarcastic, miserable Ash. I was the old upbeat, funny, laughing, smiling and truly meaning it Ash. And I kept saying over and over again, <i>I want to feel this way forever and ever</i>.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/120_2042.jpg"><br />He's so pale...<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/120_2046.jpg"><br />The camera was zoomed in. Oops!<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/120_2048.jpg"><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/120_2049.jpg"><br />I'm blowing away in this one!<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/120_2050.jpg"><br />Check out how eroded the beach is in the background. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:252865 2005-02-18T02:27:01Z 2005-02-18T02:27:01Z Me: how was the bar last night<br /><span class='ljuser ljuser-name_tresfabuleux' lj:user='tresfabuleux' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://tresfabuleux.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://tresfabuleux.livejournal.com/'><b>tresfabuleux</b></a></span>: It was cute. Nothing new.<br />Me: Who describes a night at a bar as "cute"???<br /><span class='ljuser ljuser-name_tresfabuleux' lj:user='tresfabuleux' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://tresfabuleux.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://tresfabuleux.livejournal.com/'><b>tresfabuleux</b></a></span>: Gay men. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:252498 2005-02-18T02:10:16Z 2005-02-18T02:11:54Z <center><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/111_1161.jpg"></center><br /><br />I'm sososo excited. Pam [<span class='ljuser ljuser-name_mothermayi5' lj:user='mothermayi5' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://mothermayi5.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://mothermayi5.livejournal.com/'><b>mothermayi5</b></a></span>] got plane tickets too. We'll be back together again...and this time we're going to do it Orlando style! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:252274 2005-02-17T15:48:28Z 2005-02-17T15:49:17Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><center><br /><h1>~ifonly88~</h1><br /><table border="0"><tr><td style="border:2px dashed" align="center"><br /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/24278890/464824" alt="aberhottie19" title="aberhottie19" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/15228103/235220" alt="abrazosdefuego" title="abrazosdefuego" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/21989427/319024" alt="acrockyo" title="acrockyo" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/12682996/2137744" alt="ashleyoxo14" title="ashleyoxo14" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/5769023/85915" alt="brandyw" title="brandyw" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/23252813/5429558" alt="busta_move_23" title="busta_move_23" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/7059755/529118" alt="clairebear0410" title="clairebear0410" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/7959701/1360528" alt="crazydrusilla" title="crazydrusilla" /><br /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/15539684/3326684" alt="dirrty_t" title="dirrty_t" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/17304031/428117" alt="fuckingwater" title="fuckingwater" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/24818395/579226" alt="furthermore" title="furthermore" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/25944032/1117085" alt="havemyheart" title="havemyheart" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/8652884/969742" alt="havok_for_god" title="havok_for_god" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/20633192/407452" alt="jessgute" title="jessgute" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/25815768/198626" alt="koonerific" title="koonerific" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/12624411/2460813" alt="luckyfck396" title="luckyfck396" /><br /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/2097184/166667" alt="mirbie" title="mirbie" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/26110065/4523045" alt="missbrianne" title="missbrianne" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/10851278/623165" alt="missfoundglory" title="missfoundglory" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/11835239/275204" alt="monj18" title="monj18" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/8195651/1306272" alt="mothermayi5" title="mothermayi5" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/16651881/2101998" alt="nes_a" title="nes_a" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/4929776/1045054" alt="nevertoknow" title="nevertoknow" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/5730108/217688" alt="notxreadyxyet" title="notxreadyxyet" /><br /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/6252242/1180050" alt="nouseforarimbey" title="nouseforarimbey" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/22854629/1381654" alt="setittoblow" title="setittoblow" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/24254611/1448262" alt="tiffanyrae" title="tiffanyrae" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/25479309/398612" alt="tresfabuleux" title="tresfabuleux" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/9887328/196514" alt="trulyoutrageous" title="trulyoutrageous" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/25321526/1479899" alt="woodstocker0990" title="woodstocker0990" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/25691269/1853800" alt="writergno" title="writergno" /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/26099151/1579140" alt="xcnut61" title="xcnut61" /><br /><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/userpic/23463674/64837" alt="_holly" title="_holly" /></td></tr></table></center><br /><center>LJ <a href="http://ljcollage.retrograde.org">friendsCollage</a>.<br /><br /> Brought to you by <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_pratibha75' lj:user='pratibha75' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://pratibha75.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://pratibha75.livejournal.com/'><b>pratibha75</b></a></span> and <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_teemus' lj:user='teemus' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://teemus.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://teemus.livejournal.com/'><b>teemus</b></a></span>.<br /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:252102 2005-02-17T02:24:00Z 2005-02-17T02:24:00Z my broken heart just has no use. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:251837 2005-02-16T16:02:56Z 2005-02-16T16:04:56Z Valentine's Day was perfect. Justin loved all his presents, especially the Tommy Hilfiger wallet [a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do...you know my obsession]. Justin got me Freaky Friday. I've been dying for that movie. Every time we go to Blockbuster we look for it. And he bought me the most gorgeous anklet. It's gold and diamond cut. I'm going to be blinging on the beach this summer! And my flowers were gorgeous. And dinner...fabulous. We had steak, shrimp, baked potatoes and wine. It was great. Mmm...I love him.<br /><br />I can't wait for Sharleen to get here. I really don't have any girl friends in Orlando. Dana, sometimes. Maureen, sometimes. Sharon, sometimes. And I'm tired of it. My only interaction with people are with my boyfriend, my favorite roommate <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_woodstocker0990' lj:user='woodstocker0990' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://woodstocker0990.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://woodstocker0990.livejournal.com/'><b>woodstocker0990</b></a></span>, my two other roommates that I could take or leave given on the day...and then all of <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_woodstocker0990' lj:user='woodstocker0990' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://woodstocker0990.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://woodstocker0990.livejournal.com/'><b>woodstocker0990</b></a></span>'s friends. I talk to people at work but I can't stand most of them. <br /><br />I'm tired of work, I hate it. I came home early yesterday because I kept having to make bee-lines to the bathroom to puke. It was disgusting. And then they were giving me a hard time about going home. God, I'm throwing up in your bathroom and I want to go home. Gimme a break. And today they have me scheduled until 8:45pm but I have class at 6:30pm so I'm dipping out at 6pm. I don't understand why they schedule me when it's not even in my availability.<br /><br />Okay. I'm rambling and getting angry because I have to go to work soon. I'm out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:251640 2005-02-13T03:50:21Z 2005-02-13T03:50:21Z 27 days and she'll be here with me.<br /><br />thank god.<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/115_1537.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:251351 2005-02-09T22:05:17Z 2005-02-09T22:05:17Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/1003/ifonly88/120_2012.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:250888 2005-02-09T16:42:13Z 2005-02-09T16:42:13Z What to give up...<br /><br />have until the end of the day to decide.<br /><br />But I think I have a good idea. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:250859 2005-02-07T17:57:33Z 2005-02-07T17:57:33Z <table width="400" align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"> <tr><td bgcolor="#BBE9FF" align="center"><br /><font face="Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif" style="color:black; font-size: 14pt;"><br />Best Line to Pick Up an Virgo With</font></td></tr> <tr><td align="left" bgcolor="#E6F7FF"><br /><font face="Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif" style="color:black; font-size: 13pt;"><br />Baby, you must be a broom, 'cause you just swept me off my feet.</font><br /><br /><br /><font face="Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif" style="color:black; font-size: 9pt;"><br /><a href="http://www.jdoqocy.com/re70gv30v2IKKRKSSNIKJLSRSJP?sid=vday">Discover your ideal love with a sample Intimacy Essentials Reading -- free!</a><br /></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/pickupsigns">What Pick Up Line Would Work On You?</a>.<br /></div></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:250604 2005-02-05T22:14:54Z 2005-02-05T22:14:54Z Have shit loads of laundry to do, tons of cleaning, and just am feeling lazy and want to lay down and do nothing all day. Need motivation.<br /><br />Feel like cuddling. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:250219 2005-02-02T18:19:42Z 2005-02-02T18:19:42Z I hate how my parents keep things from me. I'm an adult. I can handle it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ifonly88:249873 2005-02-01T18:18:47Z 2005-02-01T18:18:47Z i should have never moved down here.<br /><br />it's all a mistake.