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[16 Nov 2005|06:06pm] |
15 Years Ago, I:
1. was 6 years old
2. worried about this girl in my class who always copied off my papers.
3. went to Orlando for the first time ever and got my ears pierced.
10 Years Ago, I:
1. had my first boyfriend and first kiss.
2. rode the bus home from school.
3. considered myself the "second most popular kid" in our class.
5 Years Ago, I:
1. got my drivers license.
2. thought I was in love.
3. lost my virginity.
3 Years Ago, I:
1. lived in Buffalo.
2. got my heart broke.
3. used a fake ID.
1 Year Ago, I:
1. was getting ready to spend my first holiday with Justin's family.
2. had the best roommates in the world: Justin, Anthony and Matt
3. threw the best parties.
6 Months Ago, I:
1. quit my old job and started working at Macy's.
2. never got to lay out in the sun.
3. lost my Meme.
1 Month Ago, I:
1. started going to Cellar with Dana a lot.
2. was trying to figure out what to be for Halloween.
3. realized that I'd be incredibly lost if Justin wasn't a part of my life.
1 Week Ago, I:
1. was with Justin and his family in PSL mourning the loss of his grandfather.
2. was crying.
3. hugged Laura.
1 hour Ago, I:
1. was at work.
2. got a call from Justin.
3. opened up a credit account for a customer.
My Top 3 Biggest Worries at the Moment:
1. Having Thanksgiving with Justin's family and my parents and not have Pappa there.
2. I don't have enough money.
3. School school school.
My Top 3 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. Being able to spend the last week with Justin made me so happy.
2. Shar's finally 21 - happy birthday!!
3. I met Hanson :)
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[08 Aug 2005|07:33pm] |
Wow. I think it just might be time for an update.
So the summer is almost over and it's almost time to go back to school. I'm going to be working full time and going to school full time. It's the only way to afford to live and make any decent money. But I'm back at UCF which is extremely exciting.
I'm looking forward to fall. Looking forward to school starting. I'm done with this summer. I can honestly say that it has been one of the worst summers ever. You know, I was really excited to have my first Florida summer...but I worked all the time, never really went to the pool or to the beach...and things between Justin and I were so up and down it was taking up all of my energy. I have a lot on my plate right now and it's really hard.
I missed out on a lot by being down here this summer. I missed my first summer with my Etka boys. I missed going on vacation with them. I spent my first 4th of July completely alone and didn't get to see any fireworks. Plenty of people called me, though, to remind me how much fun I was missing [Belinda, Shar, Pam, my parents]. It was hard to not do anything on the 4th because it's my favorite holiday. I missed the family trip to Kentucky. I missed being in Buffalo with everyone, being in the city with Shar...
All my roommates have officially moved out [the last one was very unexpected] so now I'm living by myself for a few weeks until someone new moves in. It's really depressing because I'm going to have to start taking down the things on the walls that made our apartment so interesting. A collection of beer ads, bikini models and movie posters that the guys have gained/bought/stolen over the years. A new era of people will move in and new friendships will form, I'm sure...but I want the old ones back. It sucks.
My parents are planning on coming down for Thanksgiving...so that's something to look forward to. My mother is turning 50 the day they come down and she's trying to avoid it like the plague. My birthday is coming up soon, too. The big 2-1. I doubt I'll do anything for it, though. I wish someone would help make some plans or I had someone to do something with but I just don't see it happening. Plus, I'm turning 21 on a Sunday night and there's not many choices of places to go on Sunday. And I can't actually do anything on my real birthday night because I'll have class the next day at 9AM. I dunno, we'll see.
I guess this is all for now. Who knows when my computer will be fixed. Until then I'll just keep trying to get on Justin's to see how everyone is doing.
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[11 May 2005|10:01pm] |
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Heart, we can do this together.
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[03 May 2005|11:33am] |
School is officially over. All my trips are over. There is nothing really to look forward to anymore.
Justin and I went to NY and had the best week we've had ever. We went to Buffalo and stayed with ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mothermayi5 and everyone else. Justin now realizes how great it is up there and why I fell in love with it. I think he left a part of his heart there, too. That's how much fun we had.
We got to eat a lot of the food I've been missing [Hello! NY Pizza], see a lot of friends and family.
My brother's wedding was great. Everything went well, everything was perfect. I'm so happy for them and they really have a good thing going for them. I will get around to posting pictures sooner or later and then let everyone know.
Things have been rough since we've been back. As soon as the plane landed back in Orlando...everything has been different. I just don't want to be here. I don't want to be away from my Mom like this. I don't want to be so far from my girlfriends. And it sucks. Because I can't do anything about it. But I'm through with Orlando right now. I'm tired of it. I wish I could go home for the summer again. Last year at this time I was home and everything was great. I love New York. I miss my boys, I don't want to be away from them all summer. I don't want to not spend my summer with them like I have the past three years.
It's so hard. And I want to make the best of it. I don't want to mope around. But it's just so hard.
your highs are high and your lows are low...but that's okay. It means you are feeling.
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[11 Apr 2005|12:46pm] |
I think I have a LJ stalker!!! Ah!
Justin will be home any minute then it's off to the gym and the pool. About two weeks left until the wedding and have to look good!
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[08 Apr 2005|02:59pm] |
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So, I think it's official. I never write.
The past month has been absolutely insane with Tina and Marcus coming down from South Carolina, Sharleen from Syracuse, Adam and Tiffany from Ohio and mothermayi5 from Buffalo. But all of our visitors are gone now and we're getting ready to head up to New York from my brothers wedding in less than two weeks. It's coming close, I haven't been home in nine months, and I am extremely excited.
I can not believe that my brother will be married soon. How old are we getting? Nate's getting married, I live in seven states away from my family...where did the time go? When did we grow up? I didn't even realize it happening - it went by so fast.
But I'm happy. And so is he. And that's a plus. We are all stressed out with the small things but we're happy. And that's the best gift God has given me.
Justin and I are doing good. I love him. God, I love him. I can't repeat it over and over enough. It's such a great feeling when you found the one person that could make you happy for the rest of your life - someone to grow up and grow old with. He makes me happy. Just being in his general vicinity makes me smile. He's so handsome and sexy...I can't get enough.
[[As for you. I don't know where you've been lately. I don't know why I don't matter anymore. But I can tell you that you have hurt me this past month because you haven't cared. And that sucks. Because I thought you and I were good friends - forever friends. And by you not even bothering to contact me and meet all of these people who are so important in my life while they were visiting has hurt me more than I can put in words. I'm glad you're happy. I'm glad that you're doing good. But I wish that I crossed your mind every once in awhile...or even be good enough for a quick "hello".]]
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[26 Mar 2005|10:58am] |
The first year of many more to come.
I love you, Justin.
03/25/04
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[09 Mar 2005|05:59pm] |
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So, it's Wednesday. Tina and her boyfriend, Marcus, have been here since Saturday night. I'm terribly afraid that I'm boring them. With work and school and no money it is hard to entertain as much as I want to in Orlando. Most things cost time and money. Poor college students don't have much of either. It's so nice to have Tina here, though. It's definitely nice to approve of the object of her affections, too.
Sharleen is coming on Friday. I'm pumped. It's been 8 months too long since I've seen her. Also, tomorrow, Justin's godparents son is coming down with his girlfriend. And I called Justin's little brother, Aaron, and got him to come up to Orlando this weekend too. It's going to be a full house...not to mention a big ass party on Friday night.
Definitely can't wait.
Things with Justin and I are better than ever [not like there was much of a rough patch before]. But everything has just been getting better and better lately and I'm loving loving him.
Life is good right now. Very good.
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[03 Mar 2005|02:42pm] |
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I love him.
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